Dec's 1

Hi,

Its kinda late to say Happy December. Since in ages Dec is my fav month eceh Dec is cute right? Like me >.<

oh yea...earthlings are reaching 2013. Dec seems d fastest month isnt it? Ive no idea on my holiday. I wnt a vacation. Ayah plan macam ayam so let him be. Ive started my tuition so far n d syllabus make me scared, a bit. REALLY AH THS SPEECHLESS ON BLOGGER geeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Ppl, i wnt d fifteen me. No loves around. I mean, i didnt thought on boyzzzz? Kpop, obsessions yeap. I wonder how baik was i am when i was fifteen. Seriously evryone noticed it right? D teachers. I miss d way i act on 2011. Strict, soft-hearted ceh when it comes to kpop ah lolololooooool i'll be sitting fr spm nxt year geez? I get so insecure wth d chinese in my tuition class wei. So pandai idk wht they eat, how they did a revision, how did they absorbed everything! Hundred fr addmaths, 86 fr physics. HOW DID THEY SURVIVE?????????????!!??!?!?!?!??

Thts d mission, to make my parents proud of me as they've feed me fr 16 years long n fr my dream future.

So goodnight btw, peace

thru November

Hi,

November almost ended n hi.....

Ppls there's nothing much on Nov. Aniq is busy wth his spm n i find lotsa ppl around me were born on Nov so Happy Birthday. Oh yaaaaa, 20/11 birthday ayah n hopefully we'll having dinner somewhere~ im craving fr pizza :3 yuuummmmm lol its supposed kiteorang yang belanja ayah but its turn 69. Ayah yang belanja the family on his birthday. K whateverrrrr

Then the nxt 3 days birthday Jia, then 6 days forward its Maya turn. Oh tht grl, i miss her so much. Shes hving a better life in Sabah now, hopefully. N......my bawang ni looks awesome than before

Idk whts ayah plan fr ths holiday. He seems busy. Macam plan ayam je  =___________= AND I CANT WAIT FR TWILIGHT WTH MY BABY ON THS THURSDAY!!!!!!!!! \(^O^)/ AND HE'LL ACCOMPANY ME TO SHOP SOME OF MY STUFFZZZ hahahaha

Yeaaahhh, aku kan dah macam mabuk kat 1D en? en? Hm i jst wanna cry :'''( i want their tour!!!!!! OH MY HARRY

Sups!

Its have been a while I didnt post something that I really really want to share sincerely from the bottom of my heart. Aww and i rear to visit Bloggers almost that long since i wasnt here. Ppl glad that now i had such happy ever after life. Weh, does this takes place forever? I hope so. Since when i ever starts to get scared to let lil worth thing in my life? Penakut~ god, since when? I should be strong. Pray is the best weapon. Im still not done

Its not really good to hate people. Whats the point? Its deal for those ppl whom thought Im annoyed them. Hey, you annoyed me too. Think. Ppl shall be smarter than this. Haha Im sorry ppl. So sorry

My mid term result wasnt that good. I just had 4 subjects which i passed my 60 and above target. 4 more below 60 and 1 G. Its addmaths again. I got no A's. Highest, B+ I should stop saying "parents should understand. It isnt that easy" because i think i should blame myself. I've changed. I had been so emotional lately mostly on midnight. I overthink till i feel sad. Stupid me

After all, I am still fine. I still have better life. Such awesome journey

Inner said

wake up, I'm trying to show you

I wanna come clean

you mean more than you should mean

but I'm willing to be

the one that you put on a pedestal

the one that you see in your dreams

the one that you hide your true self from

the one you want to please

and I know that it's wrong to want something

so false and so fake

it's not that I want to fix you

I just want to get my way

cause you're the one that I put on a pedestal

the one who keeps coming back to me

the one that I gave my whole heart to

the one who makes me believe

I want a love that's side by side

I want a love that holds me tight

I want a love that feels like a dream

but when I wake up, he's still there with me

so put me up on a pedestal

give me everything I need

but give it to me so completely

that there will be no more wishing

I am just telling you that the lyrics is beautiful. I love this once till now. Keep singing everywhere. Nunite :)

Random

Hi,

Actually I have no update recently. If i have pun, i will keep crapping about Patrick. lol I bet you guys must be boring~ and morever Patrick said that he stalked my blog. Defish!? Well, its such embarassment. Let it. But perhaps he wont get often drop here. I think so. Haaaaaaaaaaaaa whatta feelings

School was okay. And Patrick makes it better than okay lmao March test is just around the corner. Next Saturday. WHAT!? Saturday? Hurrrrrrrr Friends was the best. Classmate too. Happy family and life keep move s on w too much hopes. Huh

Dudes, like seriously i have nothing to update. Boooooi :*

Patrick

1. BBM (checked)
2. Texting (checked)
3. Tweeting (checked)
4. Peeking (checked)
5. Eye contact (checked)
6. Confession (checked)
7. Extra love confession (coming soon)
8. Declare (someday)

Slowly ok? :)

Depressed

Hi!

Eh besok sekolah? Yeeeeee sekolaaaaaaaaaaah. No more cuti-cuti Malaysia till the March break. (╥_╥) Weh ce jangan buat muka tahi. Kau agak ada ke makhluk yang asalnya hanya sel sperma dan duduk di dalam rahim ibunya selama 9 bulan akan gembira dengan situasi ini? Entah. But absolutely not me. omg!!!!!!!!!!!!! Homework mesti banyak. Jangan dikira. Tuntasnya, selamat menjamu buku. Eh?


Dan sebenarnya..........


Sebenarnya kan..............


Itew takut ah nak cakap. Eh tak tak, malunyewwwww ><




Kk
Bismilahhirahmannirrahim~








MENTALLY HURT!I know.... I know... no one care about this. Whateverrrr. HURRRRRRRRRRR ~_______________~

Angkara siapa?

dont blaming others

Dah, I nak merajuk dengan Blogger. Bye!

Nagging

Hi,

Officially Directioners start from this moment! Uhuks gila ah. K uols semua diam. Jangan nak banyak bunyi. I keep waiting for Super Show 4 Malaysia ni.......... It's February alr. Eeeeeeeeee who's in charge the tix for this year? When when when!!? Aku dah tak sabar dah ni nak p serbu Sg Wang pukul 7 pagi. hahaha 

Tetapi, sadly to say mungkin mungkin MUNGKIN! Mungkin lah kan........ I will move to SBP. Okay, dont cry dont cry~ Berat lagi bahu yang memikul ni. Which school to apply? Seseri? Sains Selangor? Ungku ada kat Sains Selangor. Dekat pun dekat dengan rumah aku. But if asrama, how come nak p SS4? Lantok lerr. Malas I nak pikir. Nanti kena tinggal all yang I sayang. Nanti masuk asrama tak dapat nak tidur dengan selimut busuk I ni. Eeee I cant sleep ah if that way. No waaaayy. Actually, nak pindah sekolah je tapi Ayah kata " dah alang-alang kau masuk jelah asrama " Ummm Ayah jelah masuk. Boleh? Nak tinggalkan tuition Martin yang ada Syed Anwar Aljunid and Umaas yang voke tu lagi. Kpop? Mp3? Laptop? Phone? Semut Api? What the hell? Too many things/ppl to leave. ANDWAEEEEEEEE!!!!!

Dear Tenoks, it's suddenly I miss you guys........ TENOKSSSSSSS WUPS

Everything went ohsem!

School starts today after a weeks of CNY break. The morning supposed to be a bit crack morning -.- The Principle, she's become annoying annoying and annoying~ Friends was good. Just................. *censored* Wana texting w Ares. Err tak jealous. SUMPAH tak jealous

Well, Teacher Eugiene looks great today :) She must be very delighted w her CNY celebration.

"Saya taknak marah-marah harini. Nanti luck CNY saya lari"

hahaha actually, Teacher Eugiene reminds me of "Im funny guy" shirt. Oscar? Errr wtv. I got some plans w Jia, Myo and Anis fr this upcoming Wednesday. Umm, Biology lesson was also awesome. Testosteron. har har har XD I hope I get excellent marks fr the quiz. Maths and Agama also. Applaud! Haaaaa, seriously school is getting okay now. I mean, the lesson session ONLY! Haihh, the discipline regulation is so tight y'know. Lebihlebih Principle baru ni kan. Eeeeee nak kick out je dia. Gaji eight seven k. Heh? Heran -..- And the compulsary is, HOMEWORKS memang tak dapat lari. Nvm I know how to manage everything even sometimes Im kinda slow. lalala~

Btw, Nizam ftw! Walaweh hensem siot mamat ni. Bertambah tambah ke gentlelan Korea dia en. I went upstairs to Account class semata mata nak tengok dia w his new Korean style spec. Ugh dah lah putih melepak. Wait, what kind of foundation are you currently use weh? Putih nyeeeeew T____________T Ikr he alr fair since he was in primary school. He's natural fair dudes. Kay Nizam, gajah depan mata kau tak nampak en? Hahaha XD Waa.... stop it. No matter what it is, Nizam is the HANDSOME -est and COOL -est guy of f4 batch of Seri Tasik. Dengan style Korea guy dia. Ugh dah, shut up!

Taecyeon Malaysia weh! Taecyeon Malaysia. Untuk Peah je kan? Untuk aku? tsk tsk T______T

Btw, Im fall fr my study now. Seriously semangat suddenly.............. And un-declared guy, I miss you

Sejuk hingga ke tulang

The clock keep ticking. Nvm, holiday~

Done Skype -ing and ooVoo-ing w Jia and Myo. Ummmm, so done kutuk orang, they heard my conversation :3 I thought the call dah off! Ciss and the school's blog, bila nak siap? Homeworks? On the ending, Myo was suddenly broken. Dont be that upset. I had felt it once. Jia too. W her Adam. Myo w her crush and me? W......... bitch. Ugh Me, always get cold whenever I felt offended or whatever terasa dengan dia. Actually, I think aku yang suka cari pasal. Emo lebih. Why? Im afraid losing him. But if someday it have wroten to be, have faith :) K, blar blar blarrr

Jia wasnt there. omg poor baby :( Masyalah teknikals. Uhh! Btw, Happy Birthday to Moyy. Sorry late :( Really sorry~

"Eleh, kalau awek dia pun belum tentu dia kahwin dengan awek dia pun nanti" -Cikgu Salwa

"Better you guys tukar-tukar boyfriend now, sebab nanti dah kahwin you have to stick to one person. Boring life" - Cikgu Syed Anwar Aljunid

Ummm, not so sure this both statement such a motivation/cakap kosong/lu pikir lah sendiri :B whatta sweet days and night, girls. omg why Im being hellshit hyper tonight!?

Talking to myself

Hye, tak mandi lagi. Ugh kesah?

My life would become better better and better now. Umm, perhaps there's......K, cut! Btw, i miss my old me. Fifteen me. With no man to hold on. Move on, growing as totally completely single lady, girl teen. Im not that lonely actually *tipu sikit* Friends keep comfort me. Teachers also. And books. harharhar I got no man to think about. The brokenheart really teach me how to survive. Y'know, without man you still can stay alive, girls. Allah alr wrote something that you couldnt read w your naked eyes. Be patient. Life such a journey -flashback

*Now on* Somehow I feel scared to face 16. The fear that I always think, will I be that 14 bad again? I dont want to :( And somehow I thought that I have to abandon love. Im such this young still! Oh no, humans need love however bad the situation is. Really? Hmmm but this stupid me still got friends, parents to charge the loves. The man would give me someday. Whenever my mindset ask me to leave him, the heart will never authorize that. But, friends had told me that if we did wrong decision, doesnt mean we would lose the right man. Yeah, I note that

Does love really would ruins you? Hm idk. Fortunately Im not that lost. That boy, I miss him but everytime I text him, blank. No idea. But, I really want him to know I really miss him :( I cant tell him. I cant to. Sorry. Dont ask me why. I love him too but still, I cant confess. Why macam mayat hidup yang tak berdaya nak buat apa-apa? Ugh thats me. Seriously. I wont repeat worth words for hundred times. Gila memendam. harharhar dah biasa, dah pro dah. hihihi I wish you know that I love you but not so sure whether this is temporary or forever. I think you remember my words "nothing last forever huh" :-) Aaaaaaaand, how come I'm in love w someone that I really hate before and hurt me like oh bila difikirkan balik I would be so cold w him suddenly. Again, REALLY HATE BEFORE :( Tell me

My heart gets tired. Tears could not comes out anymore. Unless, if it does really hurt me inside. Ni cinta monyet je kan? K, just note this, someday you'll find me as a doctor or a pilot and a wife fr my endless husband and a good mom of my child. Bye

Toodles!

Oh thanks for the biscuit. Weh, just a biscuit doh. whatever y'know the feelings when suddenly rasa diingati dan dihargai. Wait? Yeke? Ok, it just my feelings. I dont know lah kan whats in his mind. Kita kawan~

"I think he like you. Just, he want to further his study" 

Ok, statement Ger ni like seriously killing and tak bagi apa2 impak dekat aku.Kita kawan~ Dah macam semua aku nak minat. Omg that senior seriously cute gila :'3 Guys, ni kelebihan single. You may having crush w whoever you want. But, aku tak take serious pun. Lekk ah. Cuci mata. kekeke Oh, okay okay. Rileks. Jangan melayang sangat. I just wanna be w Mr.Forever. Who? I even do not know :) Nights

Pathetic me

Hafiz is going to new school tmr. Teknik KL. So, boys dah kurang sorang. Weh, hiba sikit :/ I'll miss his laugh yang "ahak ahak ahak ahak" ==' Umm, entah lah. I couldn't imitate his laugh. Btw, the laugh still cute. Take care Hafiz. Don't comeback to Seri Tasik again. That would killing you. har har har

This is real true. Homeworks is slowly killing me inside T_______________T Aku penat arghhh! Takkan form 4 ni pun nak struggle habis. Ke sebab aku amik science stream ni? Fuck up nya weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh T____________T Sumpah nak mati. Boleh gila. Mental

Tadi, tuuuuuuuuuuut. hahaha eh eh slowly dah tegur A doh! kekeke freaking excited. Time bio, ummm aloh sweetnya. Definitely thanks to Ger, Jia and Myo. kahkahkah And time BM, weh kau tahu tak aku jealous TETIBA!? Again TETIBA! Apsal doh? :/ A, just pls ah jangan bertindak terlalu awkward bila bertentang mata dengan aku. Ceh? Aku tahu ah kau tu pemalu tahap A+ Dah tu aku ni? Tak malu? Weh, kau lelaki. Aku perempuan. Ke nak tukar gender? Stupid. Tegur jelah. Watlek sudah :3 Time BM tadi, sumpah aku like crying inside. Kau apa tahu? Tersengih sengih. Suka? Heh sampai hati :'(

Friends, perhaps korang pun dah bosan dengar cite aku yang macam takde kesudahan ni. Thanks for the advise. Tapi en, aku ni........................lately always get pity for other first. And the way korang cakap just leave him, aku pun tak tahu ah. Gimme time :'( Sorry for not listening to you guys. I just afraid. You know. Afraid much

Btw, for the whole story I just wanna tell you guys that Im in misery again :'( Foreveralone. Bye

Busy and Obsess

Hye there, dudes, chicks,

So far, school was okay. Actually it is better than okay. Im honour to say that how grate should I be cause having such boys classmate. Hafiz, Daus, Syamim, Danial, Alias, Kuchai, Dot, annoying Nik -.-", Syukri and A. gulpppp :3 Dah lah time Sejarah duduk sebelah dia. Oh oh oh! No fluttered heart. Nak tegur ke tak nak tegur ke tak nak tegur ke tak. Weh, segan doh. Both pemalu. Aicehhh bagus lah. Tak payah tegur eh? Sampai kau p Teknik Sepang tu pun tak payah tegur eh? Heh

The girls, not so bad. Ada lah annoying jugak.But, as long as aku boleh bersabar. We are like siblings. Sokay, keep annoying ^_^v if they would be my lil sis, dah lama kena pangpang. Homeworks, bertimbun. Too much things to memorize. Im dead. The cells, dah hafal. Organelles. But, always always always wrong spelling. Aduyyyyyy I wanna go for extra class! Ayah says, " kau kan nak masuk asrama" hah? De hell lah T__________T I don't want to, Ayah. AddMaths, uhhhh! scary boo. Chemist Bio Physics so far, ok lagi. Chapter one en, mana challenging sangat. Rilexs lah bro

Form 4 is actually wasnt that relax. Makin busy adalah. Sabar la weh. Bakal pilot memang macam ni. har har har :D

Ladies and gentlemen, tell me, why Im so obsess against this oppa!!!!!!!!!!!??? T_________________T

I loved them. Sung Gyu, Woo Hyun, L, Dong Woo, Sung Yeol, Sung Jong, Hoya. Arghhhhh! Kita dah setahun anniversary lah oppa (; Oppa, saranghae. Pls come to Malaysia. Oh, btw Teen Top new comeback pun daebak. Uhhh, crazy lah. Anyeong

When the fifteen turns sixteen

It's been too long no update. Walaweh, kinda busy. The first week, quite fun. Mintak mintak jangan lah first week je. Oh! Lets introduce the class :)

4 Amanah the name was given. 22 girls vs 10 boys. harharhar Syafiq Fauzi tu tak tahu lah mana -.- Some rumors kata pindah. K, wtv.  Ehem! There's A there. Defuq. Totally awkward but whatever it is, you know, the mission is to dominate pure science. Aaaaaaand, new deskmate, Ger :) Btw, I know this year would probably be the new experience for me. W the new heavy subjects, new format, new mate, new surrounding. Ugh! I try my best.

Maya, I'll miss you. Hmmmm, takecare there. Study smarter and dont ever forget us here :'( She'll fly to Sabah tmr night. Ummmm, nanti rajin rajin sikit weh datang sini. I beg you read this. I love you so much, bawang :'(

Dude, could this stay?

Just pls, time fly a bit faster!

How would my life be when I'm on my new school? I mean, new friends? New surrounding? Errrrrrrr Just aku hope this thing je:

1. There's hot dudes. hahaha ><
2. Good friends but my old buddy there's no doubt :'(
3. Pretty atmosphere of study
4. New forever die soulmate. bitch me, hahaha 
5. Prom night
6. I wanna make friends w Chinese and Indian. 1Malaysia!

Bold here; I want someone new in my life. Soulmate. Perhaps he would be my future husband *bangang*

Ehem! I forgot something. I got 6A'S berkat doa cikgu2. I know they pray for me too. But I think, the best pray is from Ustadz Afiq. Entah lah, I think the most from him. Jelly Wana aku letak nama Ustadz Afiq kat sini. hahahahahaha Favourite Ustadz ye Wana? :P

Ok! Dammit

Firts impression of reading;

(o_____________o)

Second impression;

(o_____________o)''

Then,

:O

Uhkay, actually I've got no feelings at all when reading that. Just shock! A bit naustating, annoying, jerk. Okay, boo you! Weh, pls ah. If I could I would left you behind, stop missing you, that, those. Kshit. Y'know it just promises that I hold may safe this complicated situation. I dont broke promises. Completely, I up my middle finger for myself. Feels like eating my own brain. Still alive, but just haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Waa, look what you had done! What you had promises! So know on, I knew that I dont really know you well. Fortunately, no tears come out. Fuhhhh! You're too complicated for me. Boo yah

Anyeong nae sarang

Assalamualaikum, Hi,

I'll be going back to KL tmr morning. Woah, how sad. Oppa just come at 7:57 am then he never appeared till I went back home :( Oppa, take care. I bet if I back home I would forget you, so Im sorry. But you know, it's the best for me to assume you as my inspiration. Oppa, anyeong :-/ Hope we could meet once again, in future.

Dedicate to all of my oppas here, but whom the best are

Oppa 10618 & Mata Kucing♥

Come some peace

Hye..

I am currently @ Terengganu having holiday while waiting my PMR result. Actually, there's no story. Plain day but still got a lot of delight. Now on, demam Twilight, Kdrama and again KPOP!!!! hikhik

Here, there is somehow tiring. Damn me. Cengeng -,- Recently, I care too much on my face appearance and I guess I had gaining some of my weight. Idk :/ Hopefully it was just my feelings. Shit

Unsaved.

I was born as a skinny baby but slightly growing bigger when I was six. I wonder what Ibu had feed me with. But I know, maybe I am inherits my father's side whom with tough wide sized. Somehow, I try. Tryin to loss my weight for ten kilos for two month. Quite challenging. Control my meals and activated myself. That doesn't enough. I know I should do more.

Second, trying to make my hair longer. How? It just keep thicking. However, Alhamdullillah cause they're healthy. They are obey whenever I comb them. Haha Possibly if I never had layered-cut before my hair would be much better. Semua sama panjang. Hm so, Alhamdullillah. Bersyukur dengan rambut yang ada. Those layered sometimes make them yaaaaaaaaaaa (praise myself) hikhok

Thirdly, I wanna brighter skin. It doesn't mean too fair. Just I WANT TO BE BRIGHTER! Feels like 10 budak hitam. Hurgh =____=  Strips pulak tu. Hell do. I was born fair, just like Ibu<33 Uhuksss Bukan tak bersyukur, but yeah sometimes I should be grateful for who I am.

Lastly, get a glory result. So badly. This is my future. I studied for my parents. Hm, that is my responsible. Ya Allah, takutnya nak dapat result nanti. I want to be a better person. Again, for Ibu and Ayah.

Nights,

wawa