aku mencari ketenangan dengan reading my older posts pasal kpop n this really made my nite

http://wawamukk.blogspot.com/2011/02/self-entertain.html

omg frank to say kpop posts aku sangat cute, bagi aku la hahahahaha tanpa disedari aku dah dewasa n tinggalkan kpop just like tht :( not really n betapaku dulu seorang loner tahap maximum

back that aku rasa, life aku dengan kpop dulu jauh lebih baik. no i mean like that time aku happy kids all-the-time kira cam kanak-kanak ribena ah hahhahahahahha



gini rasanya sedih sekarang hahahahahahahahah JongHyun stop it!!!!!

Craziness

Hi!

HAPPY OCTOBER EVERYONE...

And my life is moving on not so slow, not so fast. Frankly being unstable, this day sad tmr happy yesterday plain blablabla~ 2012 must be ermmmm perhaps not a lucky year fr me bcoz seems like i dont really like ppl around me. I MEAN, I HATE THEM. I REALLY FUCKING DO. I GIVE THEM HELL. Fuuuuh~

My study dont get so good, but yeah not bad at all. I still can catch up the syllabus though im being so lazy ass nowadays. Well my brain still can think smart though sometimes. Uh yeah? Brrrrr how could im senses so confident with myself? I knw its good but.......just not to overly let the confidence to trap myself then drag me down. OH PLS NO!!!!!!!!!!!!

You knw my craziness? Aniq Nabil Mohamad Shahlan, 17, an artist of my life. My Justin Bieber! LOL WHUT DAFUQ THIS? -___- Oh, actually im just got so into Bieber's songzzzzz now on. Urghhhhh its like 14 years old me lah. The past 2 years. Hihihi hope so im not one of Belieberzzz. Piuuw~ Aniq must be irritate everytime i speak "Yang, Bieber...." "B, lets listen to Bieber's....." "B, sing fr me Bieber's pls..." then he'll go like

WAA, CAN YOU STOP IT?! JUST ME.... JUST PLS ITS ONLY ME UR OBSESSION

K.... :3 nah, my finals just around the corner. Shall push a lot of efforts. And Aniq too. He MUST! Spm is waiting fr him, next month. For our 7th monthiversary i wish all the best fr us. Hopefully we both could be better in our life and fr whom we loved.

so malas to write the title, so untitled

\morning fresh face/

I didnt plan to skip sch. Oh my up late, tu lah overdose jimba sleep late last night buat hape tah. Teruk! Dah lah today got Chemist experiment. Dengar katanya lah.... Alah, perhaps i didnt get any opportunity for today. So sad friends....... tipu sikit. Annoy shit of me. Blerghhh

And i found it aint easy to stay at home actually. I hate it. Tidying up my room, vacuums, hanging clothes, wipes dining table, washing dishes, k stop it. STOP! This is what the real jimba? Whut!? Eat your dust lah. I miss my class :( only my class eh. And my bestfriends too. Ciisei i must be missed some learning lesson for today or discussion for the exam papers or the announcement of the highest marks. Patheticssss. You know aku tak suka bila kena masuk class then tanya "wei, siapa paling tinggi?" ok macam dah tak suprising dah. Takde suasana tepuk tepuk tu. Haish oh god i hope there's no discussion such thing or whatever i missed today. Bawak lah ke esok/next week.

But still, i am enjoying the day i've been through. Through thick and thin. p/s: i've been sitting in front of this laptop just to post this for 3 hours. lol what!? really good on wasting time aite? Peace..

kedewasaan ini

Hi mammals,

Yay! August test ended. Weeeee~ tak tergambarnya perasaan, 3 hari tu macam penyeksaan lol. Baru monthly test. Diam lah Waa .___. jiwa kental. Redha. Tawakkal. Result entah lah.... Bukan takde confident. Tapi insyaAllah lagi sekali addmaths je fail 3x berturut turut. Yang lain pass dengan tidak semegahnya! Amin

Ermmm kalau nak update rasa macam dah berpuluh ribu je post benda sama. So, i left some words; Congrats DLWC! You're the hero. The only medal Malaysia got on #Olympic2012 blurpp~ Me, a Malaysian proud of you. All of us. Dont cry superhero...☆

Oh damn man, dulu LCW ni aku punya childhood crush. Nak kahwin dengan dia lerh konon LOLS! Peah mengingatkan nostalgia siaaaaaa. Ok that was typical kids k. Hm......lagi apa lagi eh? Ermmmm harini dah 8th Aug so tmr is going to be the 10th last day of Ramadhan. Really cant believe how time fly so fast. Tahun ni disebabkan aku dah macam ada lah jugak masuk tazkirah dalam otak ni en, what if......if i try to seek for the malam seribu bulan! Dah lama dah.....kepengen dong :( ustazah kata, kena jaga malam. Kuatkah hamba-Mu ini ya Allah? Berdoa......

Itu perkara biasa. Tapi nak cari solat solat sunat tu en. Ermmmm....nak cari pengalaman. Tapi kalau mata dihimpap batu, tidur jelah. Ustazah kata, doa banyak banyak. Ok ustazah! Aip aip captain~

Who cares if aku tengah sedih sekarang. Ok yang ni takyah baca ah. Menyampah ah. Nak post pun segan segan malu je. Bulan puasa ni amal ibadat jelah. Ceh tapi kat Twitter tu dah pack dengan tweet emo cinta hambar. Suka hati ah. I hate this feelings :( Meradang jiwaku oh sib baik bitches 4 Amanah safe me. Oh my joker....

whore much

All i can say is, they cheer me up. Really. Thank you friends, classmates, brothers and bitches....... 

Seriously macam what the fuck why i keep being emotion? Hm people dont know and dont need to know and just act like you dont know or you really dont know. Macam mindblow tak? K tak jadi. Bye

Classmates

Hi,

Recently i get busy and tired and lazy to update those little cute things that happened around me. SPM STRAIGHT A'S. Thats what into me right now.

So for the last 25th April, I went to Auditorium UMBI, HUKM with my classmates and seniors. The DNA World Day was awesome. There got another 4 schools and guess what, i really never expect this to happen. Like a miracle. I met my ex foster brother, Amirul Fahmi :') Eh? But we didnt say "Hi". Just a sharp eyes glance :') I know he still remember me when my name was announce as the quiz winner. Thats it, the way he look at me. I know. Hope he will be alright and get the best result for his SPM.

And for the last 28th April, my school had an Entrepreneurship Day.

So....this is le classmates. We had a really joy work-in-team day lol. We are the winner! Ok bongkak :3 I really love my 4A. Y'know.......mula mula kiteorang tak boleh cooperate sampai gaduh gaduh. Semua lain kepala. But......there's something on us yang sweet. We know :)

HAPPY 2 MONTHS, ANIQ NABIL♥

Updated.

Hi selamat pagi good morning sawadekap eh?

Harini skip school. Esok sekolah ganti. Petang nanti pergi tuition. What a life~ But still, i own this scumbag brain. WHYYYYYYYYYY? sadlyf3 tsk tsk tsk T__________T

Biology is getting tougher. I hate Sejarah. My English teacher like blablabla. Physics's sir also. Semangat lebih tapi tenaga kurang. Damn habis lah aku. Harini kan tak pergi sekolah kan, kan? Rindu sayang :3 Ok lek ok. Eleh tapi kiteorang bukan date kat sekolah pun. Main mata je. We respect school ceeeewah. Seriouszzzzssly! Dah a month kan, WE NEVER DATE AT SCHOOL. Sebagai tanda.........segan sebenarnya lol

And recently, i got a problem. Just a little things that could make make life simply miserable. Unstable feelings.  Maybe i was born as super annoying emoish fatso girl. Mhmmmm i can handle this cause sayang always make things getting better even a bit. Though he doesnt know about it. I dont wanna interupt his study. I dont want him to be that worry. Just stay happy, happier than before as he with me.

I dont understand with some of the people nowadays. Twitter is getting annoying. Super annoying with those retissss, judgemental, fake, berlagak alim. Weeeeeeeeeeh, ok ni nampak macam jaga tepi kain orang but i get sick with those tweet yang macam bangang kat timeline. Peoplessssss, just be cool and mind your own bussiness. Follow unfollow pun nak jadi isu. Tweet yang aku rasa entah dari mana diorang rembat, mungkin paling famous search Google quote or Tumblr. Entah tak faham aku lah. Dah basi. Aku ingat lagi 2 years ago aman je crapping. Mhmmmm sadisnya lahai

Hi ppls,

Today i was having my 7th date with my sayang. Yeah i know we are schoolmate but kiteorang kan stranger kat sekolah. Zzzz takpelah, kiteorang tak kelam. We're just stay cute. hikhikhik with the Starbucks and the prawn Tako and the Oreo and the fish fillets. Gosh sayang eat a lot! He's buncit and lagak kononnya ciri ciri future orang kaya, seorang arkitek yang bakal membina our own house. Eh? Study leklok eh sayang. Your SPM niiiiiiii.  I swear he made my day. Things gonna be alright as the day keeps moving forward. With Ibu's bless, i hope so we'll make this that far far far away~

And that suddenly at 19:00 sth i guess, Jia called me and informed that she was accepted to SBU. Dudes, she's moving to new school :( Then i was happy but deeply inside.........this 3 years friendships really mean a lot to me. With those bad and good memories that we had been through. Haih sebab secondary friends ni buat kau matang sikit kot. And you will think a lot. Its great. For her future yang bakal doktor tu kan. Harapan nya laaaah. Hahaha~

Dengar cite boys nak shift class sebab dengan gerun nya, dengan tak boleh masuk nya. Weh sumpah hiba. Aku bet 4A lepas ni cacat bisu jelah. Entah. Aku rasa sebab bontot bontot ayam semua dah takde kan. Whatever it is, just move on cause dreams come first and i know Aniq will always be by myside. Eh? :3

We were walking and bubbling and i love this bubble:

" If i dah jadi billionaire nanti..... " -Me

" Apa apa? You jadi bini i? " -Sayang

:)

Inner said

wake up, I'm trying to show you

I wanna come clean

you mean more than you should mean

but I'm willing to be

the one that you put on a pedestal

the one that you see in your dreams

the one that you hide your true self from

the one you want to please

and I know that it's wrong to want something

so false and so fake

it's not that I want to fix you

I just want to get my way

cause you're the one that I put on a pedestal

the one who keeps coming back to me

the one that I gave my whole heart to

the one who makes me believe

I want a love that's side by side

I want a love that holds me tight

I want a love that feels like a dream

but when I wake up, he's still there with me

so put me up on a pedestal

give me everything I need

but give it to me so completely

that there will be no more wishing

I am just telling you that the lyrics is beautiful. I love this once till now. Keep singing everywhere. Nunite :)

Leap Day

First post for the date of 29th February.

Happy birthday, Muhd Azamuddin Roslan and thanks for the midnight call on yesterday night. I'm the first person to call huh? Ok, terharu x)

Broken with Patrick. idk. Dont ask. I need the truth. Thats it

4 Amanah is the sweetest okay. Dah lah sepah kan rak buku teks science stream. Then kena jemur tengah panas sebab tiga perempuan gengster merujuk kepada myself, Myo and Jia. K perasan kiteorang ngorat dia lettew XP Sorry gais. Kita sweet ok. Kita sweet. Lupa ke? Myo and Jia keep saying that they are troublemaker. lol emosial

And i eat a lot of candies in the class. Tension mungkin. With my own hard feelings. But i know i can be tough coz there's dolls who will always be with me. And calculation makes me forget my problem. Seriously cool. Kbye enjoy ur leap day gais :*

Saturday dot

Hi,

Like usual, i'll go to Martin every Saturday, having my extra class for Physic and AddMaths. Anwar and Umaas used to be the best tutor ever. And today Anwar yelled like WHAT THE FUCK!? Guys, he got the best appearance among the tutors there with an Arabian and idk whats the mix. The Engineering Electrical course and blablabla. But his style looks quite arrogant sometimes. He get mad easily when ppl cant cooperate with him like "I DONT WANT TO HEAR ANY VOICES WHEN IM TEACHING. AT ALL"

He really mean the "at all" cause even a sound of "krek" he can even heard. Haiyooo and tadi, i think i should blame that bloody chinese guy. Eeeeeeeeeeeee stress gila ah class Physic tadi. Sumpah! It become worst when i sat at the back of the girl yang her sized is quite big. errr not quite but physically big. And the guy besides her pun sama and the girl besides me pun 2x5. Huh i cant figure out whats going on in front so lagilah stress out ugh! But i still love the class.  A lil bit. Sincerely i cant cooperate with stupid Physics formula since masuk chapter 2 ni. Defuq dizzy hooooo

On my way to reach home at the train, i was bumped into Patrick♥ hihihi :B
"You looks cute"

And Anis, happy birthday.

Stuck!

It was raining heavily. We get stuck in the library. Ugh pak guard bangang p tutup pagar pasaipa? Menci! 

lalala coward me. Haih sial -..-

super Anis XD

K well Jia, we didnt get any chance to snap ur action yesterday. Wait for another day! Tu tinggi uh. So, it used to be our first experience panjat pagar. Um, never done this before kat sekolah. hahahaha a chance to met him. Gulppppp! 

Motivation

Just now, I peeking my first love. Oh, he's cool. Growing. Ehem! He's better educate from me. He already leave me behind. Next year, he declared as SPM candidates. Uh yes, I knew he could pass it. He's the best. Ain't you know he's damn smart. Last year PMR, 8A's. UPSR 2007, 5A's. Goodluck Kamal. Goodluck. Someone put me in pain and I should thanked you because you're the one who teach me what love is for the first time. I'm delighted if we ever met once again. Kan people keep saying that first love tidak boleh dilupakan. Yucksss! I thumbs for 99.9% >< hahaha I wanna met you in Sains Selangor. Why so gatal aku ni? Silly. Whatever

I've tried to not to put myself in love. But, I'm failed! FAILED :) No matter how hard this feeling be, I'll fix myself. Mend my heart. The result was the best thing enough for me to think on my future. Love, ummm someday Mr. Forever would come save me like in fiction love story. Oh oh! I prefer Snow White. harharhar Totally upset. Hmmmmmm whatever. Im tough. Have faith. That such useless if you keep thinking about it. Thats not the guarantee of my future. Don't cry over a spilt milk. Past and mistakes was good enough to teach me. I may cry, I may feel the regrets, I may inhale the misery. But somehow, don't be overacted. It's not good.

I'll think positive. Leave those shits behind. Forget about boyfriend, love. Comfort myself. Be serious on my study cause 2013 is not that count. I don't want to change anything cause I know, I am standing on the right way now. I'm doing the best, as I could. 2011 was my best year ever. I'm saying this seriously. No such vain

"No more third chance. I love you and I'm sure, I'll miss you Bojan. You were the last for now on but that someday someone will takecare of me then. Takecare, goodluck too :)"

Broken

Hye,

I walk through two bloggers and both of them sudah cukup untuk influence aku sedih. Jeng jeng jeng siapakah mereka berdua?

1. Ungku Nurilidayana binti Ungku Mohd. Esa
2. dot dot dot

Bangga Ungku? hahaha I read about Pahang. Semua Pahang. Pahang. Pahang. Rilexs lah bro.

Kau, aku nak jumpa engkau. Tahu tak? Takpe lah tak tahu. I've got something for you, even perhaps thats priceless. Tapi, believe me. It worth! Hooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sakit weh. Sakit sangat. Sejak kapan aku berjiwang ni? Duh, this is expressing. Aku betul2 kena melepak sekarang. Meet friends, bak kata Jia "Chill this fuck out!" hooyeah Then aku lupa kejap. Balik rumah, ingat balik. Useless. But, at least I tried. Sokay, Twitter pun dah dipenuhi Ombak Jiwang dan di Blogger inilah sisa2 batu yang terdampar di tepi pantai. Uhkay, sangat mengarut. Bye

Heading to the stars

Anyeonghaesayo lovely readers,

First of all, thanks to new followers. It's gaining day by day. Oh my, thank you very much. If it doesn't burden me, I'll hit you guys back :) *blinkblink*

The result is coming soon. But why I keep sitting in front of this pc? Oh Allah, sebelum apa2 jadi, I wanna make a wish, I hope I get 6A's, at least. Or, minimum 5A'S. Straight A's would be the best. Hmm, takutnyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :'( sampai terkadang termenangis. Ok,it's normal dude. Lebih2 lagi time dapat result. Oh myyy silly me :3 Takde pape lah tuuuuuu. What I'll get on that day would be based on my effort. Ummmmm, what if I make Ayah & Ibu dissapointed again like 4years ago? :'( Thats make me mad. Pelajar harapan, on trial I've got 4A's 1B but on the real UPSR, I only got 3A's. Sedih! You know, parents always want us to give them the best and WE! as their child should try the best.

My bestfriend forever, Sofea had went to Japan and hopefully she would bring some souvenirs for WUPS! hahahahaha Ramai hot dudes there, jelly me. Ok, someday WUPS will having our own trip to somewhere. Korea! Ohmyyyyyy :3

asdfghjkl

Readers,

Um.. now memang tengah mengaum everywhere talking about bola. Well, dah takluk Asia Tenggara en. haha Aku pun tempias ni actually ._____. Rambang mata ni dah semua minat. Shahrul, Wan Zahrul, Fadhli, Muslim, Baddrol blablabla. Ok, I loved every single Harimau Muda just yang tertera tu... ehem ehem lebih sikit ^,^ Tmr anyone going to st? I won't be there. Stay home but stay supporting. Shouting jyeahhhhh!!!!!!
*why Internet acting damn slow tonight? -.-
I didn't understand whats wrong with myself. Kenapa aku reply text dia? asdfgh It's ok. It just a text. No more hard feelings. I swear

This girl, happy birthday :) So for our gang, Semut Api<3 haha you guys just have to wait for 2 girls left. Me and Maya ^__________^

Try to understand

Early in mooooooooooorning, I skip my school. Hmmm? Sekolah bosan, stay home bosan, lepak pun bosan. I've no idea with this. Tell me. I miss my books, my study T_______________T

7:07 am, Friday (today/just now)
I stalk him through my window again. Watching his slow motion walk to school. With his red Body Glove bag, and wearing sport suit. Habis lah dia kena denda (dalam hati) Today supposed to wear Baju Kebangsaan. Alhamdulillah dia sampai dengan selamat, masuk dalam sekolah masih dengan slow motion dia. He did hurt me but I still care. No matter, I just love him. Lantak lah dia care or not, but I am somebody who need to express my feelings. Thousand times I said, I love you! 

Behaviour dia dah lah hurt aku, then stalk his status ;

'Don't give up. Have a better man than me :)'

I know this one for me. Instinct aku selalu betul. KAN WEH!? KAN!? KAN!? Siapa lagi yang gila kat kau besides aku? Huuurghhh! T______________T See? He still can smile. Dude, how can I find others if you're the one? Tell me? Or just tell me you've other better than me OR still having love with your past crush. Blablabla ~ At least, talk to me. Call me. Greet me. All that may relieves me.

The clock tick 7:43 am but Nor Amiera Najiha still didn't gimme any call -..- Ni lah plan ayam namanya. Pfft.

No wings to fly

Perkara yang kecil tak perlu diperbesarkan BUT I say this YES! Sebatang pen sudah memadai untuk menyakitkan hati ini ditambah lagi dengan tengkingan yang menyakitkan hati = PERGI MAMPUS Sorry friend, i love you

And today, I had gave him an origami. It's a bird :') Cehh, nak bajet Korea-Korea ah ni? Memang sikit. Hihihi And I slipped a line of words 사랑해 so that he'll know my feelings. I guess he know the meaning -..- Hampehhhh. So, Ger make a call on him . Well, he promise to call me tonight but no guarantee. He gimme such a hope. askdghjkhsjd Actually he's not. Hmmmmm

Please keep the birds safely on your arms <3

Pray

Saya hanya mampu berdoa supaya dapat result PMR yang cemerlang dan mendapat ketenangan hati yang abadi.

He has the cutest smile, weird reddo ear when he get ashamed, severe Kpop obsession, fair complexion and skinhead. Hahaha. Therefore, I stare on him. And ...

I am the author of our love

Hello readers,

PMR ended and Im not feel very well. K, berbaur sedih pilu bahagia cuak. Dan si dia, obsesi maksima!!!! He's not Bruno Mars or either Infinite's Sung Gyu, but I LOVE HIM. Allah know. Ma chicks, aku rasa kita dah tak boleh gather macam dulu. I GUESS! -..- Aku sayang korang weh. Tolong lahhh, lately aku ni banyak berkasih sayang. Why Why?

SAYANG MAKSIMA untuk semua. Dari ibu ayah hingga ke kawan-kawan & juga si dia

Wisdom lead

Hello readers,
Firstly aku terkejut gila sebab aku TERPOST! something on blog. Cett, TER? -.- Baca buku memanjang pun stress jugak en. Perasaan yang tak dapat aku gambarkan sekarang ni. Mungkin melalui kata-kata seperti di bawah ;

Kemerdekaan adalah apa yang kita kecapi hasil daripada perjuangan perajurit & pemimpin kita yang tidak putus-putus untuk menegakkan kedaulatan negara

Dude, ni ayat aku sendiri pikir. Hmmm, takdelah pecah sangat nak pikir. Aku tahuuuuuu Shu & Shyra jeles SIKIT tengok ayat karangan aku tadi. Aku TAHUUUUUU :P Hahaha! Ohh lupa, ayat diatas
describe what did I feel now. Big questions mark (?) lolsssss 

Korang punya preparation how? Sumpah lah kata hati ni tiba-tiba dengki pulak makin nak exam ni. Ye lah, budak tu punya marks LAGI TINGGI dari aku. Asal buat practise DIAAAA THE HIGHEST. IN FACT DIA TENGOK BUKU. Piiiraaaahhh -..- I bukan apa, I cumaaa, cumaaa, hmmmmm! Akan bertindak keatas orang yang TIDAK jujur! But, fine. Aku doakan kau.

I tell you eh. This is my biggest dream ;

Yeah, since I was 11. PMR ni memang penting! ah. Nak hold aku punya arah. Cita-cita menggapai impian. Sadly if aku tak boleh menjadi seorang pilot pun, mungkin aku akan jadi seorang

Uuuuuhhhh, like glamour girls come to the earth en? Hihihi :D Tapi aku ni gemok sikit. Sikit je -..- So paling cikai pun, I prefer accountant. Nak kira saham. Hahaha! Ya sayang, aku sekarang sedang belajar bahawa "Membina impian itu mudah tapi merealisasikannya agak payah". Hmm? Pandai ubah hidup lah. Ohh! Ibu and Ayah my ultimate inspiration for a long time. I swear. Nak perang semangat mesti jitu. Fikirkan sasaran masa hadapan. Baru BIJAK! :P