Dear u,

U know who u r. Lets play a game. Where its actually like playing hide n seek. But in contact version. I'll be "missing" or not contacting u like usual which is actually im hiding but im still here 😊 well i'll be waiting till u reach me n see this note 🎀 search for me baby 😜 this is the only key to get me 🔑 if u have read this, screenshot this n dm my twitter account. In case just to see if u really stalking me like u always says.


I love u

I wish Im not being this time empty, but remember how happy I was during the old times. how did I make it?

read and weep

Pepagi dengar Exo rasa awkward krik


Again idk where to start. But i knw this is going to be bad when i cant sleep at night and text my friends like what should i do? well things come unexpected. I have been not feeling this sad for so long since idk when but this is the worst sepanjang im 17.

And i sit on my bed, staring at the wall. Who is going to be blame on this matter? Taking the box and the diary, sit again, looking at those pictures in the box, laptop, phone, read and weep lol how i wish i can just go back to the old times, im not going to regret ok bitch :( nasib la this happen after spm, if tak haih memang takleh fikir time spm. Why dont sometimes people cant think on other people sensitivity? For now this is going the worst birthday ever, ever since i couldnt sleep. And i cry myself till fall asleep. Serious la aku menyampah haih and my night sleep when i put the box besides me when im going to sleep, listen to "our song" and hug my bantal busuk where mentally emotional i think its him almost every night haha :( its actually jst a cheat la said that i hate, i mad cz how can u hate and stay mad and the person who makes u feeling happy more than anything? the person that u've shared story of you life and sigh with. im just....bila difikirkan balik his word, makan dalam doh. how dare :( tak kena masa wei

this is so unexpected guys. how can a guy that i frequent peek when at school dulu, a guy that make me talk to myself "wei its freaking real there will be no another guy after ths" hurts me this worst :( hes my best. rasanya kalau aku ada duit now im going to bring myself abroad and disappear eceh emo like last night i went to celebrate my birthday with my friends, wore the cardi that once i wore when i was going out to celebrate my birthday with him a year ago and theres kinda feeling that i told myself, hes with you ecewah :'( betul la kan frankly he made the best birthday ever for me last year, how i miss him that much :( and when im with my friends, they helped me to kill the pain but when i went home its actually the pain is still there, with me

and idk will this stupid matter will be the causes for us to apart. but my friend said he dont deserve to be at my best if he cant accept my flaws.

Ibu ayah, im sorry for crying hard on my birthday :( well i jst dont want they to get worried on me anymore. last night i asked ayah bila nak g vacay to forget about this pain asshole tapi ayah said tunggu adik aku yang sorang tercicir kat kampung balik dulu haih

love hurts me this much guys :( berapa lama la im not being ths freaking sad. and takkan la because of this we are going to be apart :( but who knows, perhaps Allah plan the best in future. ths is really hard guys. i love him this much but for now its just too hard for me to talk to him, like last night dah la mimpi aku reply his text. ingatkan betul, bila bangun i knw it just a dream

17 again

Exo said,

Baby dont cry, tonight~ dont cry~ cry~

HAPPY 17 DEAR SELF

Wish yang buat aku sentap ada, makes me happy ada, touched pun ada. And eventhough im already 17 but there still one thing in myself yang tidak boleh dikikis sifatnya. Which is im that kind whose cant accept pandangan orang towards myself. Kira like criticize aku, no no bukan takleh terima 100% but like wei its on my birthday doh

Whatever la, aku ni memang sinner pun

Sib baik la aku amik quick action dengan melayan Exo, if not.........

truth is hurtful like gila babi wei, chill Waa

satu peleburan hati

tatkala berasa sangat sedih, sedih dan sedih

AND NO ONE CARE

currently

Hi, 

                             

This is my holidays, currently. New obsession giving me such........... ugh u know that obsession feeling huh guys?

Waa, stop it! Cz i bet my boyfriend might get jealous hahahaha but he said he wont. Eleh yela tu :p and im comfort to blogging back instead of tweeting cz i love privacy. Lagipun blog aku tak ramai readers (i guess) cz aku tinggalkan about a year tau. Tweet nanti semua baca, and definitely mesti got "telor" yang menyampah macam 

shit, kpoppers

pe benda natang kpop kpop

stop la tweet kpop

(in their mind, mostly)

And the worst part that i hate the most is they bash kpork what the fish diorang ni sumpah mental breakdown tahap maximum wa cakap lu =__________= and since aku dah lama jinak jinak dengan kpop its actually a normal thing to read ppl's posts bashing kpop. So i decide to blog. Cz nobody care and THIS IS MY ZONE!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Aktiviti sehari,

Dear me oppa T______________________________________T

Is that gambar ni agak annoying? Boleh masuk contest tak agak? lol Waa!!!!! u r 17 in another 5 days omg this is too childish aha biar ah ^^

Abe-abe brothers oppas

New obsession,

Tatkala aku teringat balik, throwback kata omputeh, dulu dulu aku sedih  aku layan kpop. ha betul la tu and seingat aku obsesi kpop aku dulu start masa bulan disember gak, 2010 hahaha takdir kita sayangku exo, bertemu dibulan disember muahahahahaa

Ok diorang sangat awesome. Sepinak Super Junior gak, under SM Entertainment. Aku agak lambat setahun cz diorang debut last year. Ah ada aku kisah to those yang cakap aku lambat bluekkkk

Tapi memang, at least kpop doesnt hurt me. Tapi ingatlah wahai diri, jangan lupa Allah...

N to lovely readers, jangan ah terkejut pulak kpop madness serang aku ni. U guys shall know aku dulu pun memang kpoppers k. lai lai can check my older posts :p and berjaya gak impian aku nak lupa kpop jap demi spm hahahaha

Abe Luhan jangan ah se sexy sangat

aku mencari ketenangan dengan reading my older posts pasal kpop n this really made my nite

http://wawamukk.blogspot.com/2011/02/self-entertain.html

omg frank to say kpop posts aku sangat cute, bagi aku la hahahahaha tanpa disedari aku dah dewasa n tinggalkan kpop just like tht :( not really n betapaku dulu seorang loner tahap maximum

back that aku rasa, life aku dengan kpop dulu jauh lebih baik. no i mean like that time aku happy kids all-the-time kira cam kanak-kanak ribena ah hahhahahahahha



gini rasanya sedih sekarang hahahahahahahahah JongHyun stop it!!!!!

Spesis gini

Asal sedih je update blog

But people have no idea how i feel right now

Sambung malam la....

"Paper yang dah lepas tu, TAWAKAL"

spm time sadness

*background lagu saranghamnida*

Dear bloglings,

phew rasanya sangat lama aku tinggalkan blog ni omo recently time nak spm ni la en aku broken heart ceh pastu layan kdrama and lagi menyumbang kepada lara di hati.

Apa ni? Tak patut ah. Cengeng wawa will always be forever cengeng teringat masa zaman jahiliah dulu EMOSI lololol

1 days to go nyah spm T.T dah la tengah frustrated, rasanya aku rasa sangat lost like nobody hold me i cried my eyeballs out every single night wtf bij dah la nak spm, ok tekanan jiwa. Everything mess up, aku doa jela. This is not the first time aku sedih macam ni n im not that type tell people the real story of my sadness except if hati ni bergelora, bahkan lebih bergelora daripada air yg mendidih ceh tengah prepared for karangan bm rabu ni eeeei


InsyaAllah aku cemerlang gemilang dan terbilang. Arghhhhh kembalikan zaman kegemilangan pmr dulu.

I HEART YOU, 5 AMANAH 

To my namja, my yobo,

bogo shipeoso even though i met him jst now depan mata tau padahal. idk how to say how i was so happy aaaaaaa HAPPY 20TH MONTHS :') rasanya tadi aku macam wreck, i gets hurts whenever he walk away... maybe i miss too much, we aint like before anymore i guess n terasa. biar lah

the really one last photo we hd together

Well i'll always pray the best for him, for his future even maybe without me

see, emo lagi haih

Listening to our song every midnite and

Tears shed

Even if i understand that u r getting busier thn before, is thr no space fr me even jst fr an hour?

Idk

I knew a guy. He used to cll me, frequently. Well that actually i wait fr a cll from my baby. Tapi org lain pulak call

That guy, i asked him y did he waste his time on me. Skipping his hostel, go to bed late to cll me on midnite, cll me b4 maghrib n on his evening break n he simply said "well anything fr u. Idk"

Macam cliche....

Tapi y my baby didnt do the same thing to me thru this 4 weeks?

We jst hd a small talk. Nampak macam aku belum cukup understanding. Yeh? Pape jela. May force be with me. And God will always be by myside

Idk la kan but rasa macam thing change. And bij, THIS IS NOT GOOD

 When I Was Your Man ha, memang sesuai la kot

KLCC PARK

A: "Eee sini ada semut la"

W: "Ala biarlah semut tu nak hidup ni la namanya nature"

A: "Yela kalau dia dh gigit kita matured. Eh matured pulak, apa? Nature.. Ha nature la sgt"

Laughing my ass watching dis video :))

WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO GIVING UP, NAH I READ MY OLDER POST.

PATRICK? 

HAHAHA EVERYTHINGS FLASHBACK

Frankly, at the top of my lung im quite happy if he sent me whatsapp, jst a small talk. Really. SMALL TALK  N RARE :(

Day Four

I pray all d best fr Aniq, thr :( haih

I MISS TOO BAD TILL ITS HURT ME N IM MAKING MY OWN BAD THOUGHTS

Pls save me

TORN

I WAS CUT APART INSIDE but i knw i shudnt feel ths way. Tak perlu la bido

I dnt really like when im d prettiest happy mammal in d earth n lil thing drag me down
Im fcking h8 to sty down
I h8 to feel evrythg seems hard fr me
I still rmmbr when d past time evrytime i feel sad, thrs only one my friend who first to notice

Whr as nw i've to motivate myself in, n i sit alone n hoping nobody would cll me bcz isolating is my thing
Listening to some song n tears shed slowly n i fall asleep.....

"No person suffers any anxiety or grief, and says (this supplication) but Allah will take away his sorrow and grief, and give him in their stead joy." -Rasulullah SAW.

cc: Izzatykawai's blog

Rindu la pmr. Rasanya time tu je aku mcm heartless.

NEW YEAR

Hi,

"kejap je dah form 5" -Acap

 Yayy! Hes true. Time flies drasticly fast. Rasa mcm baru haritu je en jadi budak nerd form 1 now, eh form 5 dah. Senior dooooh. Alah poyo nya tapi c'mon la, im still sixteen years 21 days haha wht an ic lyf3

Fr d first week, nothings happen. Sch was ok. Not really ok. Dah la tak dpt peek Aniq lg kan :( in canteen, kat pondok tu ecece~ when hes walking around..... mengimbau memori silam hm hm

My new year night n first January was totally precious :) thts d best new eve ever hihi hopefully all d memories will alwys stick in Aniq's head. 2012 omggg d year whr i met someone precious, amazing, magnificiently, n it chnge my whole life uhuks so lepasni sure i'll be seldom on social network. Not so rare la on twit tapi clearly yes on blogger hehe SPM lg. Mst la form 5 ni tougher :(

Saya berjanji akan menuntut ilmu bersungguh sungguh, macam zaman PMR dulu tsk tsk

HAPPY NEW YEAR,

May i'll be thru new experience n stronger alive thn b4 n be a better person hihi xx