Where this thing can go?

Does we really need to take time on this opportunity? Ya Allah, fr the first time i think i really need to fight. Y'knw, the chance is alr in front you just you need to grab it! Somehow, there is obtacles. And the things still not too obvious to conclude. We need to move slowly w some steps to hold on cause its too early. BUT! THERE'S PARASITISM WITH US. Huh so i need to rush this, perhaps. Am i look desperate? Or glutton? Or mad? Or insane? Or am i just the one who take serious on this matter? Dont him?

Btw, he's my new crush. And i think, i am madly in love w him. My senior, schoolmate. FFFUU